I guess I couldn't live without the things that made my life what it is

Jag antar att det bara är svårt att nöja sig med att förstå men inte känna.

Jag vet inte var jag är om 2 månader.

You're lucky if your memories remains

My room was already small when I came here, but I seem to be making it smaller and smaller.

There is something wrong with my head. My whole life it seems to have been sorting out all kinds of information, all kinds of memories, without even asking me first.
I seem to have got it from my father, who is exactly the same. We just don't remember stuff.
My oldest friend keeps on telling me the stories of our lives. Stories that are completely new to me. Crazy stories, extremely interesting stories, that I want to remember. I just don't.
So I have realized that I need to write down my life, day by day.
So far I am on my second diary.

And in my thoughts I have bled

Aint that something

I bought a minimini digital camera. It was only about 170kr and can be put on my keychain. Way more convenient than carrying around a big system camera. (Which is exactly what I don't do - I never have any pictures to post)
So now I'm going in to the kitchen to celebrate by making some food. Sure the quality of the picture sucks of course, but he's my baby and now he will help me taking pictures of whatever I want whenever I want.

flowers in december

Midtermtests burning

The last weeks have been a long break and Kyoto turned cold. It even snows sometimes. My life froze for quite a while. Now things are starting to get back to normal, things are happening again, school, people have come back from their homecountries. I still feel a bit frozen though.
And I don't know if spring with its warmth will unfreeze me or if there is something way deeper than climate keeping me down.